Lately i've lost motivation in working out.

My goal was to lose some weight before Hawaii,

but that ended up being a fail. LOL.

 I would tell myself I would workout after work since I get off

around 3pm. I even wear my workout clothes to work so I can drive straight

to the gym. However, on most days, I end up not going because I feel too tired

or I have an errand to run, and I hate going to the gym during peak hours.

After a couple of months of being inconsistent with working out,

I forced myself this week to wake up earlier and workout BEFORE work.

I start work around 6:30am.. So on Monday I woke up at 3:40am.

It gives me at least an hour and a half to workout, and go home and get ready.

I thought waking up that early would be extremely hard, but it really wasn't

I even woke up before my alarm. Of course i still felt tired,

but before I left to the gym, I took my pre-workout drink which really 

helps a lot.

I start by doing weights, then 30 mins of cardio at the end.

It was a success, I did this for 5 days straight and I love it!

They gym is empty which is a BIG FAT PLUS!

It encourages me to go this early each time. 

Also, My workout is out of the way and done so I don't have to

worry about it later on in the day, AND I have extra time do things

after work.

Overall it worked well and I will try and keep this up.

Went to the Dr's and got my PPD test read,

then went to HR and filled out papers as a new hire.

I felt like such a big girl lol!

Got my badge picture,

except I won't get it until the second day of orientation.

While I was taking my picture I got a call saying I

needed to get a flu shot.

Luckily I was still in the area so I just headed 

across the street and got that done.

Finally I went to the gym after

and did some shoulders and sprint/jog 

for cardio.

Hung out most of the day.

and oh boyyyy did my legs hurt!
It hurt even to sit on the toilet!
hurt to walk, everything!
Walking up the stairs..

I decided to start editing my Grandpa's
Viewing and Funeral video
so that my family can watch it.
It took me a while to do it mainly because I
 wasn't ready to see him in a coffin.
and I still can't real accept the fact that he's
physically gone..

Got the majority of the video done then went to pick up my boyfriend.

Didn't Vlog much today..

Nothing really interesting happened.

I feel like this vlog is turning into a daily diary lol.

I enjoy making beauty videos,

but I just don't know what to film now a days.

I feel like I film mostly for myself, just because

I enjoy doing it,

not so much for the view.

Even though my views have reduced dramatically

since I stopped making videos,

but it's all good!

It's more like a therapeutic outlet for me.

I haven't been buying much makeup lately,

I feel like I have way too much, which I do.

I have way too many eye shadows,

crazy colored ones that I barely touched.

I mainly like buying lipsticks and foundations now.

LOL.

Anyways, today I went to the gym,

worked out Back and little bit of biceps

and ended cardio on the treadmill jogging-sprint.

MAN I feel so sore today. Yesterday's leg day got me beat!!

I literally walk with a limp because it hurts so much.

It's been a while since I've intensely worked out my legs,

probably a good 2 weeks?

I went hard yesterday on legs,

and boy does it feel good to feel the soreness

It hurts when I try and sit on the toilet too!! ouch!!

Although I lost motivation sometimes to workout,

and miss some workouts here and there,

once I get back to my daily routine of working out,

I remember why I'm doing this.

Yeah I skipped a whole week of working out,

yeah, I ate really unhealthy during that week,

I'm human, we fall, we lose motivation,

but one thing I don't do is quit.

I get back up again and start again.

Although it feels like i'm starting at the beginning again,

i'm still doing it.

We can't beat ourselves up if we eat something unhealthy

skip a few workouts,

There's always a new day ahead of us,

a new day to start out fresh again.

It's okay to fall, just remember to get back up again

and remember why you want this!

I want this so I can look good, stay healthy be healthy.

I want this to be a lifestyle,

so I won't have to take the many medication like some of 

my family members do.

I have a family history of heart issues, high blood pressure,

high cholesterol, diabetes.

I don't want to be a part of those illnesses. 

This is why I want to better myself.

Keep your eye on the prize

and never give up! :)

Had to wake up at 3:30 am because we had to leave my cousin's 

house by 4:30 am from SJ to get to SF to make it in time

for the Marathon.

I had less than 3 hours of sleep and ran a half marathon (13.1 miles)

and drove for SF back home to Stockton.

Crazy.. LOL..

Can't believe I didn't nap yet.. I just got home and got all showered up

and now I'm typing on my blog.

We arrived at SF around 5:30am

and probably started our run at about 7-7:30am.

Finished at around 11am. LOL..

Yeah I didn't train for this marathon.. 

But I do like sightseeing and taking pictures.

It's a fun experience and also challenging esp.

if you didn't train.

But a lot of people walk so it's all good.

We ran up to the 5th mile then started walking

and jogging a bit.. walking most of the time.

It wasn't as family oriented as it was the last time I ran,

which was in 2011.

We didn't really stay together.. It was my brother my cousin and my niece

that went this year.

We ended up leaving my brother behind..

which made me feel really sad..

We're suppose to be running together..

and no one should get left behind..

That's why when I got to the finish line.. I wasn't too excited

because we all didn't finish together.

I don't really care so much about time for this event,

I mainly care about sticking together and enjoying everyone's presence. 

It was just kinda lonely leaving my brother behind..

because I know I wouldn't wanna be running a half marathon alone..

It's pretty lonely..

When I went back in 2011,

we all stuck together.

When one would stop or slow down we all would stop and slow

down with them.

We started together and ended together.

That was the part I really enjoyed..

This years marathon wasn't as cracking or pumped as the last time I went..

Not a lot of music, although there was a lot of people cheering,

there were screens of us and more posters

saying "I run to be sexy.. bad ass"

it wasn't as energetic as it use to be..

Overall, it was still fun, and glad I ran.

The only reason why I run is for my brother ERIC.

I probably wouldn't run if it wasn't for him.

That's why I wanted all of us to stick together,

because it's suppose to be a family thing.

But yea. It was a really cold marathon this year.

My legs started to hurt towards the last couple miles.

afterwards we crossed the finish line finally!

This marathon seemed a lot faster than the one I ran 2 years ago.

Maybe because I was familiar with the route.

We got a Tiffany's Necklace,  a finisher's shirt, and snacks and a water bottle

from Whole Foods.

Then we took pictures without my bro.. which was again

kinda sad for me.. I wanted all of us to end together.

We the ate at this fancy Thai restaurant called Osha,

then parted ways with my cousins Eileen from there,

and the three of us headed back home.

Running for Time isn't always as memorable

as running together as a family.

Although I do want to beat my time, and I knew I had the stamina 

to run more, getting a fast time wasn't important to me..

it's about sticking together since we were running it

for my older brother who passed away from Leukemia. 

I feel more accomplished finishing together.